The one that got away :(

Did u ever dreamt of the same person over and over again? Dreams are something unintended. I do wish i dont dreamt of him so many time. He is the guy i secretly admired during high school. Its heartbreaking when he acted so shocked and happy when he knew it was me sending him all the letters. He even came again to school twice to see me. But i was to naive. I dont know how to react. He just wanted to talk. But i left him with this questions in his mind - i thought u liked me, why u treat me like that?. I was too scared and dont know what to do. You were the first guy showing interest to me. Im sorry. I wished, i never told him who the hell i am.

Now, i keep on dreaming of you. It was beautiful each time. The best part is, i remember it clearly. Like just now, u came to me crying. Saying u miss me. U said u had a hard time. I do hope u are ok in your real life, AHMY, the one that got away. I do miss u too.

Hi curl, Hi risk
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Yesterday was a dull day for me. Listening to a broken marriage stories remind me of mine. Nope, mine not broken. Yet. Hopefully not soon. I'm too vulnerable to face that kind of situation. Listening to in how people cheating, being cheated, it breaks my heart. I do believe in the marriage's tie, its all about trust n love.

And today the dullness seems to lingers. Suddenly, I miss my friends. Whom I seldom have time to see. Actually, I always have time. Not them. Updated a status on FB expressing my thought, a history of the moment smells like flowers, cute goatee n tall guy that I had crush with a decade ago, liked my status. Hmm. No, sorry dude. Im not talking bout you, but thanks for the like tho. Hahaha.

When u crushed someone's heart, don't u dare expect for forgivenes. Its ju

Almost 2 years i didnt write anything on this medium. 2 years is a short time but fills with so many event. Good, bad, so-so or blurry, it happened. Too many stories to tell but i wont rush. Live is easier nowadays, financially. But hey, life will not let u live according to your perfect perfecy plans. My love life is so-so. But the beautiful outcome from it, i met my new bestest friend and companion. We just met, 10 months ago and we fell in love instantly. Wouldnt change it for gezzillion dollars. My true true love, my soulmate. My lil Bnana.

Procastination

It was unintended, but somehow my mum know that something is bothering me. I was busted. But anyway, I guess it's a good thing. I don't have to avoid talking to her any more. I'm actually relieved.

But, life isn't that easy, sister. I need to step up. Be more aggressive. I need to.

Today, I am sick. I have fever and flu going on and its not beautiful. I hate flu. I got this liquid non stop flowing out of my nose. Its annoying!

I guess my adventure to the aggressiveness can start tomorrow. Ha!

Sakit

Pabila dilanda sakit atau susah, terus-terus teringat pada yang mencipta. Masa senang dan sihat? Dah nama pun manusia. Lupa tu normal la. Dah 3-4 hari dilanda demam, selsema, sakit tekak dan pening kepala. Bersin tak henti-henti. Semalam, turun lagi satu ujian. Air tiada. Aduh! Bil dh byr on-time. Ape hal?

Telefon provider, takde org jawab (biasalah tu..) tp di pengakhirannya air ada balik. Tapi karat! macam kopi. Rase lega. Tapi dalam hati tahu yang itu bukan pengakhiran bagi semua masalah. Tapi rasa syukur tetap wujud!

Di saat  sebegini, adakalanya akal dibodohkan dengan perkara-perkara tak sepatutnya. Tapi nasib masih menyebelahi. Ada yang masih mendokong. Ada yang sanggup mendampingi. Terima kasih.

Mood nak menaip sudah terbang. Air hidung ni tak berhenti mengalir.