Numb

At this point, my life is not what I've imagined 2-3 years back. It is pathetic now. I hated it now. What I wanted never end in my hands. Which is sickening. I always made very stupid decisions. Turn out that it eating me alive inside out. My heart hurts. My head aches.

I don't have anywhere to go or anyone to talk to. As if I'm all alone. People that supposed to understand my life right now is ignoring me. Letting me walk it by myself. Thank you. How nice. I wish I'm still me 4 years ago. Where I'm so free. So happy. So sexy and people love me.

Now? Even I hate myself. 

Thank god for this blog. It won't help me solve my crisis but it helps me to forget bout some. hmm. Anyway, this weekend will be the most heart-wrenching moment of my life. Thanks to that person. Way to go!